My Life In AA

Meetings at Alcoholics Anonymous are my Strength & Foundation to
continued sobriety & my continual pursuit to grow in my Spiritual
connection to God.

I look at the meetings & the people of AA as my Medicine I need to
get a dose of in order for me to remain Sane & Sober. There is an
incredible connection I feel when I'm at a meeting with other
Alcoholics when I listen to their experience strengths & hopes.

There are sometimes I have this overwhelming feeling of God's
presence when I Listen to someone share, I feel as if God is talking
directly to me through another Human Being. The connection I feel
when God is present like this, is like nothing else I have ever
experienced & find myself in an incredible state of consciousness,
security, faith, trust & a feeling of a complete connection to this
vast universe.

Trust me, I went to AA with doubts in my mind, especially when it
came to talking about God. I have aways believed in God, but I just
was not very comfortable talking about God. Maybe because of my
self loathing, self pity & my insane thinking that God does not have
time for me.

When I hit my bottom & decided to really give AA & sobriety a
chance ( after 24 years of being out there) I wanted to look at what I
had Not Done in the past when I tried AA, but always resulted in me
drinking again.....could it be? Dare I say it? Should I say it? My
thinking mind did not want me to be honest with myself....it wanted to
hide the fact that..... " I had no spiritual connection to God"
wow!......What do I do? Where do I start?

AA taught me how to pray...thats where I started....small prayers
everyday, asking God to restore me to sanity & keep me sober.
Praying to make the right decisions & choices according to God's will
for me, not mine & the power to carry it out. I pray for daily spiritual
growth in my connection to God & daily growth in my strength of
Faith & Trust in God & of course I ask God to remove all my
Character Defects.

I much prefer God's will for me, than my will for myself. When I was
in the drivers seat my life was disastrous. Now I have much more
inner peace & strength within myself since I'm not trying to
manipulate & control everyone on earth & the fact that I decided to
turn my will & my Life over to the care of God as I understood him.

For me Step 3 was my gateway into the other Steps....the other 11 all
just seemed to fall into place. It was as if I had found the missing
piece of a big beautiful puzzle to help me deal with life on life's terms.

I leave you with this:

Surrender, Accept, Pray, Go to meetings , work the Steps & don't
drink.      

Live Life on Life's terms....you can't control people places &
things....that God's department.....just do whats in front of you to the
best of your ability & leave the results up to God & then accept the
results!


I wish you another 24 hours of Sobriety......I'm John I'm an Alcoholic
     
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